Monday Musings

Me-1968-69 (At least the hair is right for then!)

This girl had no real clue who she was or what she wanted to do.
If I'm correct in the year
I was a Freshman at Baylor University in Waco, TX
Majoring in Elementary Education.

Looking back I can only think of how much I let my parents have their way.
I went to Baylor-instead of Missouri.
Mostly, I didn't care too much about that I just wanted to go to college.
(Or at least didn't want to be a secretary-I had/have nothing against secretaries I just didn't want to be one and was a TERRIBLE typist.)
I think my Mom wanted the cachet of her daughter being a Baylor Belle.
I wasn't, a belle.
Mom thought being a teacher was perfect-got your summers off to stay home with the kiddos.
Never mind that I had absolutely no talent for the job.
Again, didn't much care but looking back I should have majored in Anthropology!
(I didn't even know what that was then!)

I pretty much did what I needed to and what everyone else wanted me to.
Now, I wonder where my teenage rebellion was.

After all the kiddos grew up I discovered that there is life after being a Mom.
And I didn't know what to do about it.
Then Larry became ill and died.
Since then, having much time to think and I've learned a few things about myself.

I'm a sensitive, empathetic person.
That means my feelings are easily hurt and that the hurt remains long after the event.
It also means that I "feel" the emotions of those around me.
And those emotions effect me.

I'm an Upholder-so if there a stop sign at 2am and the nearest car is no where in sight- I will stop.
So, there's where my rebellion went!
I follow the rules and other folks expectations.
(Thank you Gretchen Rubin for the 4 tendencies!)

Just recently I put another piece of the puzzle that is me together.
I have Inattentive ADD.
I have no sense of the passing of time-have learned over the years to set alarms and timers.
I tend to jump from thing to thing.
These two things are why I never finish a "To Do" list!
I'm horrible with people's names.
I'm always looking for things-working at putting things in one place!
I can and do hyper-focus on one thing to the detriment of others.

Wonder what the next piece of the puzzle will be?
Why has it taken me so long to figure this out?